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I AM HERE, Caligula:
I was the Roman Emperor and the murderer of the Christians, and have
since that time, and for my sins, suffered all the horrors of a hell which
I can't describe. Suffice it to say that the hell of the Bible or of those
who interpret the Bible, is not equal in its torments and horrors to the
hell that I passed through. I tell you this that you may know that every
man will have to pay the penalties for the evil deeds he does when on
earth, and as my deeds were so extremely evil my penalties were correspondingly
great.
But thank God, I have paid my penalties and am now enjoying the happiness
of the Christian heaven, for I am now a follower of that Jesus, whose
followers I persecuted.
Strange as it may seem to you, the cause of my conversion to Christianity,
was one of the very Christians whom I murdered. She was a beautiful spirit
when I first saw her in the spirit world, and when she came to me and
told me of the great love of the Father, and the kindness and humility
of the Master, I was then in much darkness, though I had suffered for
many long years and my thoughts were commencing to turn to things that
ultimately helped me to get out of my darkness and find relief from my
sufferings.
But this Christian spirit came to me with such love and forgiveness
in her speech, that I was greatly affected by what she said and by her
appearance; and I listened to her as she told me of the wonderful love
of the Father and the great desire of the Master that I should seek for
that love and the happiness which it brings to spirits who obtain it.
She had many interviews with me, and at last, she told me that her happiness
depended, to some extent, on my getting this Divine Love in my soul, and
progressing with her to the sphere of light and love. She said that I
was her soulmate and that my love was necessary for her happiness, and
that I could not give her that love, until I had become the possessor
of the Divine Love to some extent. So you can imagine what an effect this
declaration had on me.
I saw that she was beautiful and pure and loving, and that I was not
a fit soulmate for her, and that I must try to make myself a suited soulmate
in order that I could be with her. And in addition, when she told me of
her love for me, and that we were necessary to each other's happiness,
I had a most wonderful longing to be with her and enjoy her love, and
the desire soon took possession of me, that I commenced to inquire the
way by which I might get this great love, or start to get it; and she
told me then of the love of the Master, and how he could teach me the
way and what power he had to help spirits like myself to get out of the
darkness and torture into light and happiness.
And so I continued in my longings and desires, until at last, my spirit
seemed to have a power to rise out of the darkness and to meet other spirits
who were not dark and forbidding as I was.
She often came to me and taught me to pray, and I did pray and ask forgiveness
and for just a little of that Divine Love of which she had told me.
At last as I was praying and hoping for this love and for deliverance
the Master came to me, and such a wonderful loving spirit he was, the
most beautiful and loving and yet the most humble that I had ever seen
or ever have seen, and he commenced to tell me of this wonderful love
of the Father, and how it was working for me to fill my soul and make
a child of God, and at-one with him, and he told me that the only things
necessary were for me to pray to the Father, and have faith and in all
earnestness repent of my great sins. That if I did so, the love would
come to me, and as it came into my soul all the sins and recollections
of my sins, would leave me so that I would be able to progress to a higher
sphere, where light and love were.
I could not resist his influence, and I did not want to for my soulmate
was with me in her love, with pleading eyes and anxious looks, and I commenced
to have this faith, and to pray with all the earnestness of my soul; and,
at last, light came to me and love came flowing into my soul; and what
a happy spirit I became, and thanked God for his mercy. My soulmate rejoiced
with me and we were so happy in our loves and in the great love of the
Father.
From thence I have been progressing ever since, until now I am in the
Celestial Spheres, where love is the ruling principle and only those who
possess this divine love can live, and where Jesus is our Prince and elder
brother.
Caligula, the Emperor, is now a humble follower of the despised Nazarene,
and happy in his humility and in his following of such a loving saviour.
My soulmate is with me, and whenever I look upon her and think that I
was the cause of her sufferings and death upon earth, my whole soul goes
out to her in great streams of love and she knows it, and that is a part
of my great repentance. So you see, that even though a man may be the
vilest of sinners on earth, yet the Father's Mercy is so great that His
love is never turned away, or is His mercy ever withheld.
I tell you that love -- the Father's Love -- is the greatest thing in
all the universe, and like unto it is the pure, holy love of the soulmate
who has in her soul the great love of the Father.
I must not write more tonight, but as I was passing I saw the brilliant
light that is with you and I embraced the opportunity to write.
Yes, it was Celestia.
And what an appropriate name! My friend, you must also thank God for
his goodness to you, for I have seen your soulmate and she is a most beautiful
spirit.
So with the love of a brother in Christ, am your friend,
CALIGULA, THE ROMAN EMPEROR, that was, and the Christian
that is.
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